Random thoughts..

Random thoughts while walking...
- About magic: It is a joke to think that one person have the power to "dominate" the nature (dominating the nature, would be like.. dominating God). But, I do think that one person can influence the "flow" of nature. In other words, If God is a river, you will not and can not make a dam and modify its course, but you can, humbly, take a small woodstick and draw a small line, and a few drops of the river will flow by that channel

- Another thing I've been thinking, but its hard to explain. you can't adore "God" we.. can't understand God. so we divide it, Christians don't worship God, but Jesus, the Holy Spirit, the Virgin . Wiccans worship the Father and the Mother, even Jews meditate about the Ten Aspects of the God.
We need to pray to something more.. human, more like us. God is..so everything, that, why he would help us to accomplish our everyday tasks? No,
That's why we pray on angels, and virgins, Gods and Godesses...

at the end, they are all the same. everything is God, there is a bit of truth in every single religion :-)

I guess next time I'll be talking about the will and the ritual and why do I consider this to be of *extreme* importance

volviendose loca, Sally

meditating

In a gigantic effort for keeping my blog alive, I'll post what I've been up to this last couple of days.

I'm trying to meditate a bit. I'll start by saying that my mind just won't shut up. is constantly bla bla bla, this that, having great ideas too, which I am not complaining of course but..
Sometimes is just too much!
So after seeing a thread in my lovely LHC community I decided I should try meditation.
Of course, immediately my head started rambling and preparing a huge meditation ritual and this and that, and trying to combine everything that I had read but I told myself "shhhh!" and decided to start simple.
Just put my times for 3 minutes (in silence because I didn't wanted to be scared lol) and... focusing on my breathing.
I've been doing this for a couple of days. I won't say that I am getting good or something, I'm just focusing in thinking "breath in, breath out, breath in, breath out" and have caught myself mind wandering but that's ok I guess.
Like most of my obsessions, I hope I can stick up with this for some time and get really good at it. Sometimes I have troubles living in the present and just feeling with my body and my guts, they feel somewhat disconnected. Hopefully this exercises will help me build up again a good strong connection between both :-)

Oh, and about the LBRP I talked about in the other post, I like it, is a way of praying. Is not that hard and if you do it often you won't feel as clumsy as I did while reading the instructions and performing the ritual :-$. What can I say, I am a woman of habits and rutine. I love having something to do all days at a specific time, and having everything organized

PS. I'll get my TOEFL grades this friday!! So nervous! wish me luck ;-)

Hablando con Jung

Naturalmente, los hombres que nada saben de la natu-
raleza son neuróticos, pues no se adaptan a la realidad. Son
demasiado ingenuos, como niños, y se les debe explicar, por
así decirlo, que son hombres como los demás. Es verdad que
con ello los neuróticos no están todavía curados y sólo
pueden conseguir recuperar la salud si se desprenden del
cieno de cada día. Pero sólo se encuentran a gusto en su
situación de represión, y ¿cómo podrían librarse de ella, si el
psicoanálisis no les revela algo mejor y distinto, si incluso la
teoría los aprisiona y sólo les deja como posibilidad de
solución la decisión «razonable» o «racional» de renunciar
definitivamente a sus chiquilladas? Pero esto es precisa-
mente lo que, por lo visto, no pueden hacer. ¿Y cómo po-
drían hacerlo si no se les descubre algo en que poder apo-
yarse? No se puede rechazar ninguna forma de vida sin
sustituirla por otra. Un modo de vivir totalmente razonable
es en la práctica generalmente imposible, máxime cuando, en
principio, se es un neurótico.

CG Jung

Gracias Jung... Ahora, ¿será que podrias decirme en que se apoyan? O simplemente ¿no se puede hacer?
Aceptemos los sin razones entonces

Dreaming

I won't say I love to dream.. I sometimes don't even like it. Really, haven't you though? "What did I have to remember that?"
However, I do dream a lot, and since 2005 I have been writing down some dreams (it's not very long I usually can only remember 2 or 3 lines), I don't think there is a recurring theme, and I don't really think they have a super obscure and secret meaning. 99% of my dreams have a very obvious meaning. I'll post some of them, for example:

22-06-07
I dreamt that I was a part of the Resistance, and that it was forbidden to talk or suggest energy quantization
. Since we did believe in that, we were the resistance. So we went out to paint h-bar" (Planck's constant) in the streets. J (boyfriend at that time) was caught and got killed

Well, 2007 I was seeing Quantum Physics II, so is no surprise I was dreaming with h-bar and such

Some other dreams are just plain pointless,

21-06-09


We were 40 refugees of the Zombie Apocalypse. Most of us were resistant to the virus, but some of them were only during the day. It was most like a videogame about to start. In fact, I was at the table and a resistant guy started vomiting cabbage and we knew it was infected... disgusting. then he was going to eat it up again but it was way too disgusting so I fast forwarded that part. We went up the stairs and there was F. (my boss) somehow I got to an appartment where there was two friends of mine, we were locked but it was a problem to close the door, then another friend arrived and it was a pain in the a$$ (PITA for future references lol) because they wouldn't leave the living room and we couldn't shut the door. I felt like in the movie legend, that they were about to come in at any time.

I wish a could see dreams as Jung did.. supposedly there is a meaning I can't see because it is unconscious. Anything I say would be the result of image association, but that's not the real message. Image association results are there in my conscious mind.. there is something else and I'd like to see it

This is fun, I will be posting more dreams in the future
Sleep tight,
Sally

LBRP

I'm not sure what I was doing yesterday, but rambling around the Internet, I found a very curious ritual called "The Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram".
(There are even videos that show you how to do it in Youtube... )
I am not sure where this ritual came from, and I don't think it is very antique, It must has its origins at the Golden Dawn or something.
It is a sort of a protective ritual, sealing your Aura while calling the for Kabbalistic names of God and the Angels.
I like it, and reading the at the Hebrew words (I know just a liiitle bit) does not seem harmful, or disrespectful in any way

I am feeling kinda sick, kinda dizzy and I really don't like it, it feels like a mild flu but.. not convincing. I've been feeling this crappy since I crashed the car and then not very good things have happened (Spiritually speaking, On the other hand I was offered a Job at the University and could not be happier to have something to do while I start a Master or something! :D )

I will make my best to find the time (ugh) and space (double ugh I hate-having-no-privacy-face) to do this ritual next full Moon, maybe I need to reinforce my Aura, and I could use help in any way right now

Kissies, Sally

NaNoWriMo

I found this very interesting challenge thanks to my friend's blog
Basically, you have to write a novel with more than 50,000 words in a month, starting November 1 to November 30. The best part is that quality is not important, but quantity :D

I have never though *I* could write a novel, but gee, this sounds so fun! Besides, some dya I'll be able to say "Hey, I wrote a novel.. it has over 50,000 words!" wow, now that's style. besides, I do have a weird imagination...

I will encourage some of my friends who likes writing, I'm not sure which language I'll do it though, perhaps English.. or Spanish? Maybe bilingual! Heck, I may add some French phrases too!

If you join, you can find me as "sally_neuf"

I suspect this will be a horrid and lousy remake of Eco's Foucault Pendulum, mixed with some Victor Hugo's Miserables, salted with some Canterbury Tales all stirred with a gray cloud of Nietzche's Zaratustra (Those are the books I have read in the last 3 or so months)

Have fun and let me know if you join :D

Disparu...

Where are the angels?
They dissapear.
One after the other.
Like the indians.
Like the broken face of the moon.
Oh disparu.
Oh disparu.

Metallic Falcons - Disparu

First quarter Moon is particularly beautiful today. She is like a mother with a big lap to comfort us all. I think after being lying in the Sun for so long I am starting to transition to my "Moonie" Phase too, finding balance in the opposites, always

Let's see what does "La Roue de La Fortune" bring to me this time